Negative Nether-world....

In six weeks I will be moving to Fort Myers, FL to be closer to my husband’s family.

I should be thrilled, excited and brimming with enthusiasm, but I’m not. Now, this

move is a great idea, it’s been  years in the making. We feel like our son should

grow up being surrounded by family and we need to settle down somewhere for

good.

Happiness is alluding me because my son has slipped into some kind of “negative

nether-world” where nothing is going right for him, he thinks he ruins everything,

his teachers expect too much and he is under too much pressure. Did I mention

before that he is 10? My ability to over analyze to the nth degree is prohibiting me

from seeing this for what it is, a phase in his life. Did I mention though that I have

a tendency to be the same way? My expectations for perfection in my own life

often leave me in a negative stupor when my ability does not live up to the

performance I expected.

It wasn’t supposed to be like this. He was supposed to grow up and take after his

dad who is confident, tenacious and loves a challenge. I feel like I have done him

a grave disservice and I don’t want him to be like me. I don’t have an answer

for this, I just want my son to grow up happy and content.

I better lead by example. (This is just a phase, right?)